3 step program

1 🧍 2 👀 3 Step 1 – you’re the role. You’re in character, invested in the plot, engrossed by the story and you care very much about outcomes. Child Step 2 – you’re the actor. You have some distance from the soap, you understand it’s just a play and you’re ok however it plays… Continue reading 3 step program


What would you do if you knew you only had a week to live? What would you do if you knew this life was a simulation or a video game? I was listening to my favorite podcast (Very Bad Wizards) and they were discussing the possibility that we were living in a simulation. And according… Continue reading ☠️


The only thing that burns in hell is the part of you that won’t let go of your life: your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away, but they’re not punishing you, they’re freeing your soul. If you’re frightened of dying and you’re holding on, you’ll see devils tearing your life away. If you’ve… Continue reading Burn

On spiritual books

I’ve read somewhat broadly, spiritually speaking. Some Buddhist books, or books by Buddhists rather, books on meditation, books on spirituality, books on enlightenment even, some more far-out than others, some pretty good, most offensively bad. They fall into two categories, they’re either about: 1) improving (or at least changing) states of being and 2) figuring… Continue reading On spiritual books

More about the onion

Think of you in isolation. How long could you exist without the world. In a vacuum…? How separate are you really? Or think about your sense impressions. Where do you experience sounds? Or sights? Listen to bird song for example. Where is it experienced? Listen to your own voice. What’s the difference? Where do you… Continue reading More about the onion

The onion

Imagine an onion. With eyes. Now imagine you’re that onion. the world —> 🌍 | (👀 🧅) <— you You’re the onion and you’re looking out at the world. You think you’re an onion and you think you’re separate from the rest of the world. Then you start looking at the exact boundary between you… Continue reading The onion


I’ve been getting some feedback from people. It seems they think I’m not doing well. And they are definitely correct, to a degree. But it’s not so much that I am not doing well. It’s more that I’m not fitting in. I’m understanding less and less. I don’t understand how anyone can think anything makes… Continue reading Dissonance


To cultivate non-attachment is a Buddhist concept or goal. But how to do it? Well, how else but by detaching from what one is attached to? Both the positive and negative attachments. Things one likes and dislikes. What does that mean? It means to stop caring. To sever all bonds. To become stone cold and… Continue reading Non-attachment

A bit of a contradiction

Enlightenment is a human realizing that humans don’t ‘really’ exist. That sentence seems to make little sense but that’s what we’re talking about here. So obviously it’s a bit convoluted and hard to understand, let alone put into words. Imagine having to convey this idea to someone who believes themselves to be human, without sounding… Continue reading A bit of a contradiction


Look at the subject of your discontent, whatever it may be. Then imagine it gone out of your life and look at what remains. Would things be better without it? Imagine yourself perfectly happy. Always. Would your life be better? It’s tempting to think it would be. But I imagine it’s like eating nothing but… Continue reading Discontent